this is just too much of a coincidence. in the last week, i've had 3 people ask me if i am cautious with what i write on the blog because of the audience reading it.
hmmmm, lets see ... i blog honestly about how i feel but not necessarily how i am feeling at the time of the blog. most of my blogs are post-dated emotions ( ie , i don't have the time of day to share my thots when they pop up) so like in a string, i could be happy, angry then sad all at once. i do worry if people think that i may have bi-polar tendencies, coz some of my entries may indicate this : ), but thats about as far as my fear of being judged goes.
i am being honest with myself when i write - i truly am witty you know. i find the blog a very good outlet to share my feelings. it's better than a written diary which is so 1 dimentional. i appreciate that people share in my joy or wallow in my sorrow with me. i don't feel that it constrains my style because my life is on a platter for public scrutiny. on the contrary, i enjoy being careful with my words and i don't mince. if i meant it to hurt, you better believe the pain.
my only constraint is the anonymous-ness of it. i do it for 2 reasons; coz hubs is more comfortable that way and paranoia - my second most favourite past-time where the first is still over-thinking.
so no, i'm not too worried about how people judge me coz i'm ok with being judged, family or otherwise.
POSTNOTE : bi-polar is a psychological condition. it is NOT bisexual polar bears. geez people!
Labels: darkside, helter-skelter, me
and so i'm sitting with hubs and he is focusing on tonight's soccer game. and i'm watching the players slipping and sliding all over the pitch. and i'm thinking it doesn't look all that wet, maybe the shoe studs aren't working very well. 
