you be the judge

this is just too much of a coincidence. in the last week, i've had 3 people ask me if i am cautious with what i write on the blog because of the audience reading it.

hmmmm, lets see ... i blog honestly about how i feel but not necessarily how i am feeling at the time of the blog. most of my blogs are post-dated emotions ( ie , i don't have the time of day to share my thots when they pop up) so like in a string, i could be happy, angry then sad all at once. i do worry if people think that i may have bi-polar tendencies, coz some of my entries may indicate this : ), but thats about as far as my fear of being judged goes.

i am being honest with myself when i write - i truly am witty you know. i find the blog a very good outlet to share my feelings. it's better than a written diary which is so 1 dimentional. i appreciate that people share in my joy or wallow in my sorrow with me. i don't feel that it constrains my style because my life is on a platter for public scrutiny. on the contrary, i enjoy being careful with my words and i don't mince. if i meant it to hurt, you better believe the pain.

my only constraint is the anonymous-ness of it. i do it for 2 reasons; coz hubs is more comfortable that way and paranoia - my second most favourite past-time where the first is still over-thinking.

so no, i'm not too worried about how people judge me coz i'm ok with being judged, family or otherwise.

POSTNOTE : bi-polar is a psychological condition. it is NOT bisexual polar bears. geez people!