management sandwich

god, i hate being middle management. now i know why managers are such pricks. coz they finally got out of hell and they want to torture the next in-line. it's like a "hazing". (oh, for crying out loud, go wiki "hazing" if you don't know what it means!) worst, the ritual could last years.

delegation sucks. i swear it's pure torture for someone who likes being in control, like me. how can i be sure if the staff i've delegated to, can do the task. when i give work to someone, i expect the same level of outcome as i would have done it myself, if not better. if i had to buddy/ shadow, i rather just do it myself. a teacher i am not. time is something i do not have.

what i am is a go-getter. and when it comes to work, i'm really anal. my work is a reflection of my office personality and i pride on it. there is no failure. and that is my expectation.

*deep breaths* ok ... i'm not usually a psycho bitch but it's been a long one and a half months. work and home stress is getting to me ... there is just not enuf chocolate in this world!