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26 April 2008

i am very lost

it's exam fever for angel girl and i've been tutoring her math, which is so not her fave subject. many times, she finds it hard to get into the groove of the subject and i end up losing my patience.

today, i yelled her at coz she did a really bad job on an assessment paper i asked her to complete. she ended up crying and i was just pissed off by the attitude. i told her to take some quiet time (30mins) and come back to the table with new attitude. she agreed.

in the 30 mins, my very eloquent 7 1/2 year old daughter wrote me this note entitled I am very lost

"I am very lost, like Zillah the lost angel. I am very lost in this world and this school and i know that you are lost in this world too. I am writing this to tell you that i love you. And i hope you understand me. I cry because sometimes i feel that you don't love me."

when she showed me the note, we both cried. then hugged each other tight. i told her she's not lost. her home is in my heart. then we hugged somemore.

NOTE : Zillah is an angel, in a nativity book i bought for her last xmas, who was always the last angel. she was always late and never quite managed to do anything as well as the other angels, no matter how hard she tries. but she is determined to get things right. and eventually she does.

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Blogger Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

Poor girl..have heart...I think Maths isn't a Eurasian-Indian thing.. My dad got exasperated when he taught me 3x3 = 9 and 3+3=6I couldn't understand why they weren't the same...

... He even threw the book away and I was lost too..so lost that today i have to count 9 + 8 =????

Allah, poor girl....

3:19 PM  
Blogger Homeschool @ sg said...

AG's note broke my heart :(. Don't loose patience with her la, she'll only hate maths more. Im suprise u actually cried along with...another side of u?

9:34 PM  
Blogger shoesthatfit said...

it's different when kids write coz they express from the heart. not like adults.

i cried coz 1) it was so pure, 2) i felt like i failed her 3) i thot she wrote the note so well (felt proud)

she came back 30 mins later and she was in THE ZONE. but only for another 30 mins. then she asked for a break.

sigh, she's got the attention span of an ant! but she's getting there :)

11:32 PM  
Blogger Homeschool @ sg said...

well, at least you know she's gonna do well in compositions! hahahahha :)

12:10 PM  
Blogger Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

With Math, I think, you need to start before they start talking..cuz that was what my cuzzie's wife did and the kid's a freakin' Math genius.. anyway, that's what life is like back home..stress stress stress lor....

but am sure you're doing the best you can...if she can't do Math, you can always teach her the MAC magic..she could be an aspiring make-up artist, maybe???

8:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Maybe can work with her attention span.. .30mins on... then break and back again??

I must say though, she writes better than I do..

*hugs*

10:16 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i cry when i read your post, more for u.

AG has a gift with words. i am amaze how she articulate herself so well at her age. big big hugs to her

its always a challenge teaching kids, whatever. you had already done a great job with your 3.

hang on there!
win

11:19 AM  
Blogger _z. said...

oh god.. how do you handle this kind of intense emotions...

that's was so cute...

11:26 AM  
Blogger Denise Oliveiro said...

OMG! This girl is sooo sweet and honest! Babe, try to remember that not everyone's a 'numbers' person, some of us are born with a stronger affinity for words and pictures. Mom used to make me sit across the dining table from her and she'd test me on my times table. I never got it right and she'd hurl the book in my face screaming and send me to my room to study it and come back to her in 15mins. It was the same when she tried to teach me how to tell time with the alarm clock.

I wish you strength and patience and a ciggy break. Hugs

1:55 PM  
Blogger shoesthatfit said...

_z. - she's not only intense .... she's already a 50 year old woman!! how do i handle these emotions you ask? did i fail to mention that marlboro is my new BFF!

dee - i think we all had the "throw the book at your face" treatment. hell in school, i remember the 'cher throwing chalk with precision aim._

2:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

a beautiful moment between your daugther and yourself...thanks for sharing it with the rest of us spectators...

Its a good convinicing one on why children are so special ! They are a precious gift!

6:16 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

a beautiful moment between your daugther and yourself...thanks for sharing it with the rest of us spectators...

Indeed a good convincing one on why children are so special ! They are a precious gift!

6:18 AM  

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